Hello my childhood friend,

I just had the hardest time trying to log in because I don't even remember my username and password any longer. If my computer were to be wiped clean of all passwords, my life would be a mess.

So today was a trying day. I woke up this morning, and none of the people I usually worked with answered my messege regarding the quiz. They could have at least said, "Oh sorry we're not going to work with you any longer." And then I fell asleep in all of my classes, and it wasn't napping fall asleep, it was full 4th level snoozing. I hope I didn't snore. At least I didn't drool! At research I almost got in a fight with Hung D. Nguyen because he called the cubicle first. I was rather disappointed with the fact that I didn't set my stuff down first when I arrived a good 10 minutes earlier and then I was disappointed with myself for reacting badly to it. I was being overly sensitive. Hopefully he won't take it too personal! And then I wanted to see 500 Days of Summer, but no one wanted to go watch it with me, so I ended up going home. Some one even had the audacity to ask why I didn't just go by myself. Really? Seriously? When I've pretty much been n  ice to rush to support her when she needed me. That just left me with a horrible taste in my mouth (similar to fresh throw up) Ugh!

And then all day, I've been day dreaming far off into the future. I need to get back to reality and set my foot on solid ground. I fear I may fall flat on my face again.

Please let tomorrow be amazingly better.

An

gahhh is right! i do dearly hate when my dear mother is right! I always have too much on my plate and i never have time to eat it all and if i do, i'll have indigestion and we all know the fatality of that.

So right now i'm taking anthro classes along with mcats. and i'm DYING. HOW WILL I BECOME A DOCTOR? I'm seriously being downcasted by current events. My mcat scores aren't any higher than when i did my first practice test and i never seem to have enough time to read. My anthro class, which i felt was awesome until i got my midterm score back, is screwing me over big time. The articles are wonderful to read, and the teacher is nice. Here's the catch; the class isn't curved and i just lost 5 points on a quiz and 12.5 on the midterm. that's 17.5 points. the class is out of a total of 100 points. AND the grade change in deadline has passed. I can only get an B- if i get a hundred percent (50 points)on the final. And the essay questions don't ask you what you specifically what they want you to answer, but assume that you know what the question is and you have to answer it right. bombdiggity man. i want an A. :[ AND on top of that i've been having my period for 7 days. that's 7 days of lack of sleep, 7 days of nausea, 7 days of crying for no effing good reason, which in turn causes major headaches and leads to sleepiness. and 7 days of can't do hw <-- that right there is an fml OTL. yup screwd. for life.

yes that's not that much, but it's overwhelming when you want everything perfect.

and then on top of that everyone is having problems these days. I"M NOT UR SHRINK GEESH.

yup i love you xanga, you let me rant. and no fucker tell me i'm searching for attention here cuz i'll KEEL YOU. and no1 reads this neways. duh.

-An

I was reading my weblog entry from september 05, 2007 and realized that on september 05, 2008 i was feeling the same thing. And today is october 14 (although there is no entry for october 14, I know what I was feeling) and today i felt the same way i felt last year too, kind of lonely, unsure of the world and slightly confused. I'm not sure if i'm given another chance to do somethign right, change the way i live, or maybe i'm just a kid and life is a nightmare.

Well I don't know what this year will bring, but i hope it's not like last year. I'm going to take the world by the balls and make it know what I'm all about. At least that's what I'm planning to do. =]